Some days I can be going through my routine with a heart that is broken, smashed, and aching, and with lungs that can hardly breathe. But if you intersect with me on one of those days I can become an actress worthy of an academy award.
“Oh, everyone’s great.”
Am I lying? Perhaps. But some things you just can’t hash out with everyone or no one. Some things you just can’t talk about, partly because if you did you wouldn’t be able to hold it together. Faking it is the only way to get through the day.
So, what do you do with a mangled heart and faulty lungs?
I’ll tell you what I do…
I take it to God. I cry and let it out. I ask the God of all compassion and understanding for wisdom. Then I listen…really listen to what God has to say. My next step sometimes is to seek out someone who is safe, who I can trust, someone I can talk to who will not judge me. Many times that person is my husband.
I stay in my Word and praise God. Yes, praise Him, because no matter what is happening you can always find blessings to thank Him for.
In the end, I accept God’s peace and joy in the midst of the trial (James chapter 1). I didn’t say it was easy, and sometimes it remains hard to breathe, but this process always makes me feel a little better each day, enough to fake it for another day until God heals my heart and restores my lungs.
God puts broken hearts back together. God turns our sorrow into joy.